DCCXXXIX (A XV, 9)
TO ATTICUS (AT ROME)
TUSCULUM, 2 JUNE
ON the evening of the 2nd I received a letter
from Balbus telling me that there would be a
meeting of the senate on the 5th, in order to
appoint Brutus to the superintendence of the
corn-supply in Asia, Cassius in Sicily. What an
indignity! To begin with, to take any appointment
from that party, and then, if they must take some
office, such a subordinate one as that, which
could be done by legati! And yet I don't feel sure
that it isn't better than sitting idle on the
banks of his Eurotas. 1 But these
things will be governed by fortune. He says also
that a decree is going to be passed at the same
meeting for assigning provinces to them and other
ex-praetors. This is certainly better than his
"Persian Portico"—for I would not have
you imagine that I mean a Sparta farther off than
Lanuvium. 2
"Are you laughing," you ask, "in such grave
matters?" What am I to do? I am tired of
lamenting. Good heavens, what a fright the first
page of your letter gave me! Why, how did that
warlike outbreak in your house come about? But I
rejoice that that storm-cloud at any rate has
passed quickly away. I am very anxious to hear how
you sped on that conciliatory mission—it
was a melancholy as well as a difficult one. 3 For the knot cannot
be untied: we are so completely
hemmed in by every kind of force. For myself, the
letter of Brutus, which you shew me that you have
read, has caused me so much agitation that, though
I was already at a loss which course to adopt, I
am yet rendered still less ready to act from
distress of mind. But I will write more fully when
I have your news. For the present I have nothing
to say, and the less so that I am doubtful of your
getting even this letter. For it is uncertain
whether the letter-carrier will find you. I am
very anxious for a letter from you.
TUSCULUM, 2 JUNE